When The Lease Expires..

Cancer and death are quite a perfect duo.. Death has taken its toll to cancer since science has ever been discovered.. Cancer can get acquainted with many parts of our anatomy, may it be blood, brain, liver or even breast.. So, is cancer a death sentence to many.. only Allah knows best..

But some may say, yes it is.. according to them, cancer is like a biological time bomb implanted in human body.. well, i reckon the whole experience can only be best described by the contracted beholders but most importantly, above all this, everything is under the will of the Almighty.. nobody can deny HIS will, we can be deadly sick by the minute but recuperated alright in due time, or if HE says it's our time to go, so it is, albeit we were in the pink of health just minutes before it.. Kun Fa Ya Kun..

Cancer has been the popular vocabulary recently, to me at least.. i've crossed path with quite a number of people whom have been contracted with one.. and that includes my cousin, a bombshell has been dropped on her when she was told she has breast cancer at the age of 34.. when she learned the truth, the cancerous cells have been eaten her alive all the way to stage 3.. devastating right? well, that's pretty much it with cancers nowadays.. when one learns the ugly truth, BAMM!!, stage 3 or 4 await at the advance edge.. and these fatal cells make quite a rapid "progress", due in a month or 2, perhaps 3 if they are lucky.. my mom's friend was told she had leukemia just a week before she passed on.. and that definitely shocked the livings.. well, i guess that's probably the reason why some people named cancer as a death sentence.. it happens too fast..

This afternoon i received a text informing that someone i knew had lost her life to breast cancer.. she has fought a fierce battle down to her last breath.. the news i received at 1pm turned out to be a false alarm.. her heartbeat stopped then but she had revived to life 40 minutes after, so everybody was relieved but her condition continue to deteriorate hours later.. preparing for the worst, her aged wheelchair-bound mother came to bid her final goodbye to the beloved daughter, and at that moment the heart stopped beating, for real.. so as the clock ticked at 4.05pm, there she was a daughter, a wife and a mother lying on the hospital bed, surrendered her final battle at the age of 37.. she left behind 5 kids, with the eldest being 12 and the youngest is barely 2.. the poor toddler is still struggling with formula as he was still breastfed by his late mother just two months ago..

Everything just happened too fast.. she didnt even get to do a chemo yet.. It was started last October.. a small swollen lump under her bra line had opened up the gate of truth.. she underwent a check-up to seek the truth and a bombshell dropped on her when she was diagnosed with breast cancer at an advanced stage of 4.. the cancerous cells had "progressed" to her liver.. but that didnt put her spirit down.. being a tough fighter, she took the news with a smile.. within these two months, her health deteriorated, but she still can managed to pull a smile.. i can still remember the moment she smiled when i visited her 2 last weeks.. when her visitors were sinking in tears upon seeing her condition, she can still put on a smile and said, "Hey, what's up with the tears, it's not like im gone, please be done with it already".. we knew deep inside she was aching, her body was bailing out on her with most parts of her anatomy were crippled.. but that didnt stopped her from smiling and that made our hearts sank even deeper..

Whose heart will not sink to see a young toddler went berserk looking for his mom.. he has been separated from his mom since she was hospitalized.. seemed to know she may not be coming home in a pink of health, the poor lil child was crying for his mom and that left his father with no option but to bring him to see his mother 2 days ago.. perhaps he knew his mom was leaving him, so there he was meeting his mom for the last time.. that would just break everybody's heart, wouldnt it..

We just dont know what the future holds for us.. she was healthy as she thought she was 2 months ago before the bombshell dropped on her.. and this could happen to us as well.. only Allah knows if we will still be around next week, next month or next year.. staying oblivious of the future, we should at least do our part to pay attention on our health.. this should be a reminder to me, i always take my health for granted.. whenever a headache occurs, i would take it as mild migraine.. whenever my stomach ache, i would reckon im having indigestion discomfort.. i would faint already at the thought of medical checkup.. procrastinating a medical checkup is seen as the best option right until the health deteriorate severely.. sometimes i reckon, enduring a pain is nothing compared to an ugly truth..

We may be in the pink of health as of we are breathing now, but only Allah knows best if our health may bailed out on us moments later.. Anyhow, comes whatever obstacles, let's not sink in despairs because Allah is always there for us.. Turn to HIM and have faith.. Anyways, i would appreciate your kindness to extend an Al-Fatihah to this tough fighter.. May she will be laid to rest in peace.. insyaAllah..

Death happens to anybody, anywhere, anytime.. when our lease of life expires, it's time to leave everything behind and return to HIM.. our time will come, sooner or later..

Truly to Allah we belong, and truly to Him shall we return..

Whoa, whatever works for 'em, man!!

This is a jaw dropping insight and im totally speechless!!..

Owh, i truly appreciate the space i have in my room now.. it makes me love my bed even more!! i feel like swimming in it!! God, im thankful for the luxury of having a room all to myself with an en suite bathroom for my convenience and to top it all off it's bigger than this guy's living room.. owh man, this is beyond my wildest imagination that such house would ever exist and i dont think we can ever get to come across a house any smaller than this one.. it feels like living in an airplane with shelves of compact compartments.. and it gets worse when you have to share the tiny space with other human being.. it's like you can feel each others' breathing.. and it's fancy being a 39y.o guy sharing a tiny room with his mom.. hats off to this guy!!

Seriously, whatever works for the Japanese to own a property nowadays.. and perhaps claustrophobic may not exist in their vocabulary.. A pat on the back for the Japanese!!

10th Muharram 1432 ~ Asyura

The Day of Asyura, it marks the 10th day of 1432H, in the month of Muharram.. Today is the day to be celebrated by all Muslims with good faith.. There were eventful histories took place on this very day.. among others were it was the day of Prophet Noah's ark came ashore, and the day Allah s.w.t saved Prophet Musa a.s and his people, and the day Allah drowned the Pharaoh and his army.. Allahua'lam.

Thus, Let's embrace the day by fasting and doing good deeds.. have a good read on an insightful article about fasting on Asyura at this webbie..

So dear friends, Happy Asyura Day.. :)

My Reward

I reward myself for acing my 2nd sem by bringing my sister and i, together with Naem and Aimi on a day-out at Sentosa & Orchard last Saturday..

Initially, we wanted to visit USS but hard luck, all tickets were sold out.. well, never mind.. we had a great time posing at its entrance that day.. i guess that was just good enuff for now.. we reckon the crowd might subside after school holidays..

So we went to tour Sentosa Island instead.. opted for the 4D Magix & CineBlast activities, we did the pirates and extreme log ride.. after that we rode a shuttle to Siloso Beach, took pictures, however we were asked to leave for crashing the Zouk private party zone.. actually, we reckoned the real reason why we were asked to leave was because we didnt look like any of Zouk goers at all.. u know, the hijab and all.. plus the party wasnt even started, not until 7pm.. well, never mind that, we are no party goers anyways.. so to vent our anger, we went to get some adrenaline rush at the Luge & Skyride.. wow, they rock!! especially the Luge.. i definitely wanna do it again..

After Zuhur prayer, we left Sentosa for Orchard to indulge Ayam Penyet Ria @ Lucky Plaza.. right after that we headed to iLuma for Harry Potter exhibition.. but it was kinda disappointing.. there werent much to see.. only posters and some of their clothing worn in the movies.. we took enough pictures though.. with that we head back to Orchard to pray at Masjid Al-Falaq, stayed for Maghrib as well.. before we head back to JB, we enjoyed the Orchard's lights at night..

So those were pretty much all of my reward.. however, i reckon the latest version of iPod Touch would be a great reward though.. is there anyone kind enough to get me one? Ngeee~

Alhamdulillah

I just received my 2nd sem result and im smiling from ear to ear at disbelief.. Alhamdulillah..

I thank Allah for HIS blessings that have eased me out during my despairs.. There were times when i feel like quitting, but HE didnt leave me struggling alone out there.. Alhamdulillah..

When we are in despairs, turn to Allah because HE will send HIS blessings to help us out.. InsyaAllah

At times when we dont believe in ourselves, HIS blessings will surprise us out, so lets keep our faith intact and turn to only Allah..

Ahlan ya Muharram

Comes the 1st month of New Year, be it Muharram or January, Resolution will be the most talked about by many, either the new or renewed wishes for the next 12 months ahead or the reflections on the recent-passed calendar.. some may be seen as fulfilled and some were otherwise or perhaps none of those were satisfied at all in the previous year, Allahua'lam.. anyways, i dont have any specific resolution for 1432H or 2011.. it's enough to say that i pray for a great year ahead.. insyaAllah if Allah allows it, i hope that i can complete my EMBA with flying colors.. May Allah grants me and my beloved ones with good health, wealth (Rezeki) and wisdom.. insyaAllah..

I pray for a great year ahead to all Muslims in the whole wide world.. Amin..