In My Life

There are places I remember

All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more


~I love mi familia~

It's Good To Be Alive..

Alhamdulillah, it's good to be alive.. i feel blessed and truly contented..

To be able waking up every morning healthily is indeed a blessing from the Almighty.. i can't thank HIM enuff for that.. at least we have another extended lease of daily allowance from HIM to live the day.. it's all up to us to make the fullest of it.. it's us to decide whether we are gonna make our lives meaningful or otherwise.. dun just wait until it's too late to celebrate the gratefulness of being able to live another day.. i just cant imagine what would happen if one day my lease expires and waking up in the morning is no longer a privilege .. if the day comes, there'll be no turning back.. everything that have been done prior to that very day will be up for calculation and hope the number will turn out alright.. i just hope when my time is up, i can pull a big number on my scale during the weighing.. i pray hard for it.. and also, i do hope when im gone, im still blessed with additional support by being able to reciprocate doa' from the livings, if i ever be remembered by any of 'em.. :)

what's up with me recently? beats me.. im puzzled too! i dun usually talk about anything serious, let alone to touch on anything about gratefulness, being blessed and whatnot.. i used to live my days in total foolishness.. i always forgot to thank HIM for all blessings in my live.. pardon me Ya Allah for my foolishness.. lately i've been thinking alot, about live and how death is approaching in a total inevitability.. i took some time to pause and reflect on how i've been living my live throughout these 29 years.. what have i done in return to thank HIM for allowing me to still breathe the air.. shamefully, i've been disappointing HIM for taking HIS blessings for granted.. truly, i have thousands of regrets for that.. i hope i can be forgiven.. shame on me, i still do hope to seek for HIS blessing and Syurga despite what i have done my whole life..

to tame our hearts in walking the talk is no easy task.. in fact, it is the hardest thing to do.. this is indeed a real challenge, i guess.. alhamdulillah, im blessed with the good Samaritans around me.. the ones whom been giving me constant reminders, i thank Allah for letting me know these people and be around 'em.. i thank Allah for bestowing me with the best parents, grandma, sistas, friends and significant people around me.. im blessed for knowing my accounting lecturer, Prof Kamil.. it melts my heart whenever he starts his classes with doa' which is recited by himself and how in between classes he takes a minute and share bits of hadith to enlighten our dark hearts.. it is totally overwhelming.. he constantly reminds us to take care of our sholats, to take few minutes in the morning to perform dhuha, and to liven our night lives by embedding night sholats.. ya Allah, i feel truly blessed.. i thank YOU for loving me so much by sending me "guardian angels" to wake me up from the darkness.. there is no word to express my gratefulness except Alhamdulillah.. ya Allah, i seek for your kindness to constantly love me and help me to stay faithful to YOU.. help me tame my heart to love YOU more and more, day by day.. :)

Every Journey Starts with a Single Step

Im good to say that i view my life from a different perspective now.. i guess the maturity has set in for a lil bit now.. well, shudnt it be taking charge of my life years ago, aight.. anyhow alhamdulillah, i thank Allah for letting me taste the feel of being matured for a lil bit.. hurm, what can i say, im waiting to be hit by the big three-O storm in no time..

i dunno what strikes me into getting myself to blog again.. i normally find blogging is tiring and i would be happier to see myself as a reader rather than a blogger.. yeah, i used to have a blog and now it's nowhere in existence, deleted and vanished out of disgust.. i just hate myself for letting the world sees the grumpy, ever angry side of me with all the rantings in my previous blog.. i took it with my writing to let off the steam of anger.. not a pretty sight to be seen, aight.. but somehow, along the way, i guess i'd love to remember each moment of my life.. make it significant, probably not to others, but to me at least.. i wanna remember every step that i take.. i wanna cherish my life.. because only now i realize life is too short.. too short to be taken for granted.. every moment matters, no matter how lil or big it is, happy or sad..

thus, i would love to leave my footprints here, stamping it to debut its existence.. well, i dun expect having people to read my writing.. it's not gonna be composed beautifully anyway, but it's more than enough to feel that my life carries a set of meaning and i wanna promise myself that im gonna stop at nothing to make the fullest of it.. so today, im gonna welcome myself once again to the blogging world.. this is the 1st step i make to fulfill my set of journey..